![]() He's kept me from sleeping because he "wants to spend more time with me." And we I do we end up arguing just because I tell him I'm tired and want to go to sleep. And he's actually made me snip a pair of headphones because I didn't. He's threatened to destroy my art, to break my belongings if I didn't keep the house clean up to his standards. Knowing that I literally have no way of getting back home and live a three hour plane ride away. No friends, no family near me, and no money. He threatens divorce, knowing I'll never leave because I have literally no one to turn to. Even though I'm going to college to get a degree and know that if I went back, I would continue to pursue my education there. And I quote saying, "You wanna go back home and end up working the same job your whole family does." Basically calling my family lowlifes by saying I'd end up in a job he deems inferior. Ask if I wanna go back home and end up as nothing. He slams doors violently and slams his hands down on things. He's demanded I clean up the messes he makes in situations where he loses his temper and breaks something because "I caused it, I got him angry enough to break/ throw whatever he did." And 90% of the time, those objects are my things. Blocked me from moving from one room to another during a heated argument. He's grabbed me while I'm trying to get away from him. But he's done other things that are indicative of violent behavior. He doesn't believe that he's abusive because he's only done it once and out of stress and anger. Anytime that subject comes up, He says, "It was just a tap." Even though that night when he smacked me across the face, I could feel the impact of his hand across my face for a solid 3 minutes. ![]() He eventually wore me down to believe that his abuse was ultimately my fault. The next morning, we tried to discuss what had happened the night prior, and he said he didn't hit me. Then, one night, during a period of high stress during an argument over a mistake he made that was so miniscule and easy to correct, I laughed a little trying to explain it wasn't a big deal. But within the past 5 months, I've begun to notice little things that my gut just tells me are off or not ok. He never hit me during that time, but he was very verbally cruel. He has convinced me that everything he was saying and doing that was cruel was for my betterment. ![]() But in reality, it was just the honeymoon phase. I moved to be with him, and we had a good first couple of years. For some context, I met my husband at 16 and married him at 18. But I really need to vent and figured here would be a good place to start. I've really been debating about posting this out of fear he's going to see it and lose it. ![]()
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